i like this guy that i thought i never would bc he's a dirt bag. i know he's just playing with me and now he isn't interested because i keep on texting him and he isn't coming to see me or talking to me anymore.
i just think he's cute.. :(
but i can't get him.. arghs... even if i do get him.. i don't really want him cause i think he's kind of retarded and he isn't going anywhere in life.
anyways so i went to a party last weekend and i met another white guy. we talked and danced. i just wanted to talk to someone that night. i dont really like him. i dont think he's cool. i kind of wish we're not going to hang out this week. i hope he blows me off.. or maybe in the end i'll blow him off.. anyways that night he touched me everywhere and it got kind of rough. it was pretty much in public on the front porch. he saw everything and called me beautiful. i think his friends know that we were doing things outside hahaha.. i was high too.. but yeah i dont like him. i just wanted to have a little fun. and I'm bored as hell.. right now.. and some other guy is hanging out with me on the weekend.. this guy is innocent and i kind of like chilling with him.. because i know he won't do anything to me. but he's not as cool.. i dont know... i just want the first guy.. but he doesn't want me :( sad face.